Where do I even start?? We had our home study in August and passed with flying colors! We were so nervous about having somebody come into our home and studying our lives and how we do things and decide if we were fit to be good parents. It was with a big sigh of relief and gratitude when she emailed and said that we passed our home study! So that was VERY exciting for us!
After we passed our home study that meant we were eligible for our website profile to be put on our Angel Adoption Website. So now our agency has been passing out our paper profile to potential birth mothers and our online profile is available for any birth mother to view from any state. Angel Adoption updates us every month about how many birth mothers have our paper profile. As of right now we know that at least 15 birth mothers have our paper profile! That's very exciting to us! Once birth mothers have profiles to go through it could take up to several months for them to make a final decision. So we pray for those mothers who have to make the hardest decision of their lives. We pray for direction and peace for them.
Right now we are in the waiting game. It's awful, it stinks, and I'm pretty sure i'm losing at this game! It's hard because we don't know ANYTHING. We just sit and wait, and we have no idea how long this will last. The waiting could end before I finish this sentence! It could end tomorrow, or it could continue on for another year or so. UGH! It's the unknown that is the killer! We will get through it, with lots of prayer and continuing to trust that the Lord is still in control of our situation.
SO, in October we went to the arts and crafts festival in mound city and we shopped around and looked at all the awesome crafts. While we were there I saw a certain booth and I got REALLY excited!! It was an adoption booth. This woman and her husband were adopting internationally and all proceeds they made went towards their adoption! I was so excited when I saw that and I couldn't wait to purchase something to help out. They were selling necklaces that they had made and so I was looking through all their necklaces and there it was....the only one like it that i saw. It was meant for me...I just knew it! I grabbed it immediately and knew I didn't have to look anymore. I had a special connection to this necklace already. Here is what the necklace looked like:
And this is my life right now.....waiting. Sometimes not patiently, some days harder than others, but this is where God has us right now, so this is where we shall stay.
When I am praying about our adoption it sometimes feels like I am wasting my breath and I am just talking to the ceilings. I KNOW that is not true, it's just how it is on some days haha. But on a Sunday in church a few weeks ago, Allen (our pastor) said something that has stuck with me, encouraged me, and brought back a renewed frame of mind. "God is still sovereign in
the silence". There it is guys....the whole point of our adoption story and what we want people to know. God is sovereign. He is in control of this adoption. All glory goes to Him. We want people to know that.
SOOOO let's wrap this thing up. We have some fundraisers in our minds that we are excited about doing. We are SO close to being fully funded. Maybe another 2 thousand or so?? In comparison to the almost 15,000 we started off needing...2,000 seems so small! It's been an amazing journey thus far and we are excited about continuing on through this adventure! So we will let you know when we get things planned out for fundraisers!
We love you all! We wouldn't be here without you! We are so blessed by you!
We love you
The Nuzum's :)
